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bullet January 27, 2012

I scraped the edge of one of the rims on my car yesterday, and it's bothering me.

The car parked in the next spot was right along the line, so I swung to the farther edge of the space, but I brushed the curb onthat side and it was enough to scrape the tire and rim. It's not huge - maybe no more than an eight inch in from the edge for one and a half inches - but it means my tires and my car aren't perfect any more.

Nobody but me will ever notice, but I'll know - and of course it's the front driver's-side tire, so I'll see it every time I get in the car.

It's not a big deal in the big scheme of things, particularly considering everything that's been going on with my grandma, but it still bothers me. What can I say?

Posted at 1:49 PM
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bullet January 26, 2012

Houston, we have a bowel movement.

Now aren't you glad you checked out this website?

My grandma hadn't pooped for five days, just longer than the amount of time she's been receiving a near-continuous feed from the feeding tube, and my mother and I have been increasingly concerned. Nobody else has had our level of worry, but the charge nurse took heed and aded priune juice to the feeding tube, and that made an almost immediate impat. My grandma is in fact sleeping the most soundly we've seen her sleep in three days, and I feel fairly confident that it's largely due to being more comfortable and less weighed down.

Now for future reference, I have no plans to discuss poop in the future on this website - just to put you at ease - but this was, we felt, the last major concern with my grandma health-wise, and we are now past the point of worry.

From this point it's just a matter of rest and physical therapy. My grandma should regain her strength day by day, and I have every reason to believe she will be back home soon and doing her best to drive me crazy.

Posted at 11:49 AM
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bullet January 25, 2012

I can't deny that this is a break from my usual routine taking care of my grandma, but when I was wishing for a break from taking care of her I was thinking more along the lines of a period of freedom and relaxation while somebody else watched over my grandma and I didn't have to worry. Right now just about all I do is worry, and the back and forth to be with her and check up on her condition is exhausting.

I still need a break, but just so there's no confusion: I want a break to relax while someone I trust is caring for my grandma andshe is healthy and in good hands.

Posted at 1:44 PM
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bullet January 24, 2012

My grandma was discharged from the hospital and sent to Providence Care, a skilled nursing facility where she can get physical and occupational therapy to strengthen her before returning her home. The discharge was somewhat abrupt and certainly without warning, but all seems well with the arrangements at the rehab facility, so I suppose that's all that matters.

My grandma herself is tired and not terribly responsive this morning, and I hope to see her more 'with it' later today or certainly in the coming days. I'm concerned about her still, but I'm confident she's past the anything dangerous.

Posted at 2:35 PM
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bullet January 23, 2012

My grandma seems much better today - tired but not exhausted and able to communicate back and forth fairly clearly. She's done well with physical therapy, occupational therapy, and speech therapy, but tires quickly. Her vitals are good and she's been fully taken off oxygen, and her feeding has proceeded without any trouble through the feeding tube. She's still tired and tires veery quickly with each activity, but she's recovering quickly.

The big mystery remains when she moves ahead from here, but I'm personally more than happy for her to have as much time as possible to regain her strength before a transfer to a skilled nursing/rehab facility. I want her to be fully ready to bear the new regimen and not tire out immediately. My biggest worry is that she'll be sent to a skiled facility and then booted out right away with claims that they've gone as far as they can and she's not improving.

Once again we're back to the waiting game.

Posted at 12:51 PM
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bullet January 22, 2012

... and we're back to major crazy.

My grandma was very full of anxiety and very full of dementia last night - to the point that I was holding her down at certain times. She was given a shot that should have calmed her down, and perhaps it did to the extent that she wasn't struggling as much, but it only seems like once we got to this morning that she is finally relaxing enough to sleep. It's possible this is exhaustion and the normal dementia, but it was a rare extremem for my grandma. It's also possible that this was a sort of reaction from her body to the surgery - albeit minor - that inserted her feeding tube. Either way, her overall state last night was very upsetting.

This morning she calmed down and slept, and hopefully she will sleep through much of today and tonight. I'm still worried that what we saw last night wasn't just an abberation, but it's easy to worry when so much os totally up in the air. It's difficult to deal with any of this when you have no idea where any of this will lead.

So hopefully sleep and at least resting wakefulness will dominate today. My grandma needs rest more than anything now, and I hope she can start getting that.

Posted at 12;: 34 PM
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bullet January 21, 2012

Clearly my grandma is doing better with sustenance, but she won't readily sleep and that is keeping her weak. She is talking non-stop, pretty much all reminiscenses and memories, but keeping herself awake by doing so, even as her eyes droop and her speach slurs. She honestly just needs to relax and sleep.

It could reaslistically take her weeks to get back to a decent level of restedness after all she's been through, but at best she proabably has a couple days or three before decisions are made baed upon her performace, and she's going to be tired for sure, even if she would sleep more over this weekend.

Hopefully she'll get more rested and thereby more stronger soon, but she's got a long way to go.

Posted at 3:37 PM
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